|Photo by Stefano Galeotti|
And yes, I know you're not supposed to apologize for not writing, yada yada. Except I actually like it when bloggers do, because it's heartfelt. It's real and it's genuine. And that's exactly what I want to get at.
I'm held back by the fact that I don't know exactly what I want this blog to be, and because I see so many amazing things being done by people all over, and I want to be a part of it, but I'm not them. I just know that I have things to say and ideas I want to share, and that is why I can't keep away from blogging.
As is usual, I want to arrive at the destination already, and have forgotten to enjoy the journey. Which is funny, because I named this blog Here + Now to remind myself to focus on the present, and enjoy the journey.
My dearest friend talked me through another round of self-doubt and disappointment at my day-to-day failings today (thank goodness for best friends!), and gave me some profound advice. She reminded me that I'm a dreamer, and that's what makes her love me. I needed that--to recognize that it's ok that I don't have everything figured out, and my head is usually in the clouds. I just need to embrace the dreaming and capture those swirling thoughts and pictures and document the journey in the process, here.
Well that came out more fluffy and swirly than even I anticipated, so let me end on this note:
I have got to get a faster computer.